Monday, March 13, 2017

To The Person I Should Give Up On

Okay, I don't really know how this is going to go. I am feeling about 103 different emotions right now. Here we go.

Dear You,

It must be really hard for you to have someone who is constantly there for you. It must be really hard to have someone who is always making excuses for you. No. Matter. What. It must be really hard to have someone who cares about you more than they care about themselves. You walk around with an ego way higher than it should be, hurting anyone in your path and destroying everything good. Meanwhile, you don't even bother to look back at the person running behind you, who is trying to save you from doing just that. We all make mistakes, but you would think after making the first mistake once, you wouldn't do it again? Boy, I was wrong. Why didn't you just listen? I ask myself this every single day. The sad thing is, the situation isn't just about you anymore. But you continue to make it only about you and your feelings. Selfish. I tell myself to give up, but how can I give up on you? I wish you would stop walking on everyone who tries to help you and stop making rash decisions based on your temporary feelings. Man, I sound like a broken record. I don't want to tell you, I told you so, again. I want you to open your eyes and change the direction of your life, but you won't, will you? I'll never give up on you. I'll never stop trying to talk to you, or as you call it, bitching at you.

To the people in your life who are trying to drag you down their destructive lifestyle with them, you are temporary, family is forever.

The Person Who Will Never Give Up On You

Monday, February 13, 2017

I Ruined My Own Proposal | Storytime

Okkkkkkay, Hi! I know I have been MIA but instead of making up a zillion excuses of why I haven't been updating my blog, I thought I would bring you a story time post of how Hesten proposed as our anniversary is coming up on Friday! It's pretty funny and cute though. Enjoy lovelies. <3

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder and some time in our relationship. Hesten and I needed to be apart to know that we were in fact meant to be together and wanted to be... forever.
A couple months after Hesten and I got back together, one of his close friends invited us to go to a baseball game with his girlfriend at the time. It was a lot of fun, we went back to their house and Hesten had a few too many so I had to drive. We went back to his apartment so he could get a few more things because he was in the process of moving back in with me. While he was inside, I was sitting in the driver's seat and happened to look down and see a very beautiful red ring box in the door.


What do I do? Pretend I didn't see it? No.. I opened the box and screamed, I was so happy. I ran inside and told Hesten I found it and I loved it and that I couldn't wait to say yes! I told him to go through with his original plan and I promised to act surprised. He didn't really say much as I'm sure he was trying to figure out what he was going to do. haha.


Because he is honest to God my best friend and there is NOTHING I don't tell him, and I knew I could never keep this from him.

We get back to our apartment, and I hop in the shower. The shower is where I do most of my thinking so of course I was dreaming of this big beautiful proposal and imagining how our wedding day would be. My oldest sister, Missy, had actually been assisting him with the proposal planning. I hop out of the shower and I had a text from my sister and it said something like "OMG. HURRY UP AND OPEN YOUR DOOR!" so I thought that meant she came over unexpectedly. So I dry off, wrap a towel around me, and fling the door open to run and get dressed.

There he was. On one knee. He smiled and say "I love you very much. Will you marry me?"

He proposed me that night, in our apartment, with me fresh out of the shower in a towel.

It could not have been more perfect because it represented our relationship so much... not going as planned but always going as it was meant to.


 He was going to propose in front of my whole family when my Grandma came to visit from California. He knows how much my family means to me.

I love love love this ring, Simple and elegant.

A few days ago, he surprised me with this beauty, my new wedding set.

Happy TWO YEARS Hesten! I love you! <3