This one goes out to all my Ontario friends…. How are you doing?
It feels like we keep getting put back into this trap of lockdown- a fixed time in life where we are told we cannot visit our friends or extended family. We cannot even go to the store and buy everyday items unless they are essential.
I feel like the air about us all is that we’re done… spent… exhausted.
The second lockdown we had over Christmas was really hard on me and I admit that I didn’t take the precautions that I should have to help my mental health. There were other factors at play, like having just quit my job, struggling with some health issues and then going through IVF.
So this time I wanted to approach things differently. I wanted to be intentional about ways that would help benefit my mental health through the lockdown.
I live alone so focusing on my mental health is especially necessary for my well being. God created community and people to have relationships, and living in a time where we cannot meet freely as we once did is definitely detrimental to our well being.
'The LORD God said, "It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him."' Genesis 2:18 NIV
So this time I decided that on the weekends I am going to visit my parents (the Ontario Lockdown and Stay at Home orders allows a person who lives alone to pair up with one other household). They live out in the country so it's nice to be out in the fresh air and not worry about being in crowded places. I can exercise outside freely and just enjoy the nature. It’s also a nice time for me to have with my parents.
I am working on coming up with a steady schedule over these next 4 weeks. I want to plan a bed time and a time to wake up, prioritize exercising inside and outside, set aside time to just read a book (whether fiction or nonfiction), call up a friend, and send an email. I also have joined an online Bible Study with friends from church and I keep busy and feel challenged with school work and attending classes.
I want to thrive in this time of separation and isolation so that when all is said and done, I don’t feel broken.
I also found myself feeling super confused with all the information being strewn about. One day I feel calm and then another I don’t. I don’t know what is truth anymore from the media. So I turned to professionals. I had conversations with my Fertility Dr, my Oncology Dr and an old friend who is a Biology teacher to help me understand this pandemic, this disease and this vaccine.
There is so much fear and doubt being thrown our way that I want to know the truth- the facts. I am taking steps to aid my mental health so that when all is said and done in this pandemic I haven’t lost myself.
I hope you are doing well in this pandemic. I hope it's not swallowing you whole. If there’s anything I can do to help with your mental health please reach out. It just might be a phone call or a facetime chat for now- but either way we need to focus on our health so we can survive this time of trauma.
Please be safe everyone and if you are feeling unsure- look for the facts and the truth, find someone you can talk to, and most importantly, my go-to, pray!